Am I Anxious All The Time?

It crossed my mind as I was standing in a social situation. I was not feeling anxious but I was moving my hands in a way that definitely implied I was. Not only that, I could not speak properly. I then realized that happens to me very often. Is it that I am anxious all the time  and because of that I do not notice it anymore? Does the same happens when it comes to depressive symptoms? Am I so numb that when I feel happy I am not happy at all? Are peace and happiness two feelings I do not know yet? Am I compromising? Even though I think that may be what is happening there is no way for me to be sure.